Scattered

I discovered my first white hair yesterday. OMG. It's the beginning of the end.

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I can't recall ever being seriously absent-minded or scatterbrained previously but lately my complete and utter forgetfulness, the total blanks in my mind, are starting to worry me. Earlier this week, I lost my phone. One day I put the cereal in the refrigerator. Yesterday after shopping, I left my purchase at another store and didn't realize it until 3 stores later when I realized I wasn't holding a shopping bag. I seem to have misplaced my new phone charger and I have absolutely no idea where it could be. I spent 3 hours last night trying to rack my brain for where it might be - I looked through all of my bags, boxes, etc. that I've moved in the last couple days and it was nowhere to be found. It used to be that I could retrace my steps and recall what I had done, things I was supposed to remember, things on my to do list. These days my mind is a complete blank. Or rather, it's a complete void - a black hole filled with all these random things that go in, but can't come back out. I've resorted to making a detailed list each morning of the things I need to do - even simple things such as "fill the car with gas." My memory (or lack thereof) is starting to really disturb me...I wonder if I should go see a doctor.